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i am so afraid of constant love, so very afraid of having all that my heart desires, so deeply afraid of being happy beyond belief ... what am i to do? ... snuggled inside my comfort zone, happy as a clam, i remain oblivious to all that life has to offer, oblivious to all the good that others can do ... what am i to do? ... i cringe when i get too much praise, wince when i get one kind word too many, recoil in horror when strangers insist on getting close ... what am i to do? ... proud to be skeptical, i feel so very safe when i'm cynical, so very hard to please when caught up in currents by turns pessimistic, fatalistic, nihilistic ... what am i to do? ... why, be grateful, of course ... be grateful for who i am, be grateful for all that i have, be grateful for what i love to do ... be grateful ... sooner, rather than later ... how about now? ... hey ... how about now?
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i walk and i watch, a mind rapt on all that is blessed, with nothing addressed, i walk, and i look, a figure in motion, a body at peace, basking in the bliss, in tune with the flow, in love with the joy, i walk, and i know, not knowing who i am or what i am, not caring where i am or how i am, i walk, and i see, a mind rapt on everything, yet nothing, at least nothing so important that i need to think or feel, see or hear, say or do, with this body in motion and this mind at rest, i think and i feel, i see and i hear, i say and i do it all, all in a moment of peace, the peace of love, in a current of bliss, the joy of bliss, aware that the peace and the love, the joy and the bliss, are here and now, yours and mine forevermore ... i walk and i watch, a mind rapt on all that is blessed, with nothing addressed, i walk, and i feel, a mind at peace in a body made for bliss ...
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